Gurus tell us to be present, to be mindful.  It’s easy, except when it’s not.  There are times when we can’t explain what is amiss.  Our mood is downbeat, our hearts are heavy.  The air has a static feel.  Restless sleep.  Wired and tired.  We tell ourselves that we shouldn’t feel this way.  But we do.  Frustration and anguish.  A funk.

Unrelenting.  Resisting.  Disconnected.  Numb.  Trying anything.

Relenting.  Accepting.  Reconnecting.  Warming.  Doing something.

And for no apparent reason, words fall from the tip of my tongue to the tip of my pen.

WITHOUT

Abiding absence

Desperately separate

Within and without.